8.16.2011

Hearts

Last night I went to bed sick (body) and tired (mind). I've been worrying about things I can't control and I was caught up in an ugly mix of gloomy sadness and hot anger. Swinging wildly between wanting to escape (read historical novels in bed and eat jellybeans until my stomach aches) and wanting to take a motherfucker out, my temper has been shorter, my patience thinner, and my nose is running.

Reading blogs today snapped me out of it; sometimes other people's words are just what I need. While I've shied away from much of the online social media world and have stuck just to blogging, I'm reminded this morning of why I keep writing and reading blogs even if I don't tweet, have pinterests, and quit Facebook.

You don't always know what's well received or not when blogging. Silences may hang after posts. Did it make sense to anyone? It doesn't necessary matter but knowing when you connect with someone is gratifying. My friends and family often comment away from the blog and give me their reactions privately. I'm not a huge commenter myself so I'm definitely guilty of not telling people what I think and, actually, really want to do more of that.

I woke up early this morning and decided to try harder. I pulled the curtain open and opened the laptop. Among all the sites I checked were Megan's tumblr and Already Pretty. God, ladies. Thank you! Megan's posts on awareness and peace and Sal's thoughts on assuming positive intent were so damn timely, it nearly broke my heart.

"Hearts and rainbows!" as Rinden and I say sarcastically. Well, hearts. I'm still not really into rainbows.

3 comments:

manthy said...

I know what you mean about reading blogs to clear your mind.
You can follow me back here if you want.
http://ismanthyhere.blogspot.com/

Megan Joy said...

Jess you just made MY day. Ive been running around like crazy, pretty much losing my mind and Im sick too. LAME. Your Words NEVER fail to make me smile. Your post a couple days ago about being with Neil and being home pretty much shriveled my heart into love dust. I love you and your life and your place in my life. xoxo calmer, easier times ahead.... TOOT TOOOOOT

ronckytonk said...

love dust...!